Okay, so I've decided that I am going to do a MAJOR overhaul of my life. I'm tired of being overweight, I'm tired of not looking like my usual self, I'm tired of not feeling good all the time, I'm tired of feeling like I have no direction...basically I'm just plain tired.
You know, before I got cancer, I was the ultimate glamour queen. I mean really, I never even owned a pair of flat shoes until I was in my mid 20's. Everything was a pump, wedge or my fav...the stiletto. Cancer took all of that away from me. The girl with the beautiful hair, the beautiful face, and the amazing body, turned into the chemo girl who didn't have a hair on her entire body, the sick girl who puked daily from the meds that I take, the girl with scars from several major surgeries related to my illness. I've spent six years now trying to make myself believe that I was doing everything in my power to get back to the REAL me.
I was talking got my mother a couple of weeks ago. I don't remember exactly what the subject was, but I do remember that I told her that I was "trying' to do something. Her response was to not "try" to do it - just do it. It reminded me of that great Nike commercial from a few years back with the same line - JUST DO IT! In fact, my oncologist (who I've adopted as my big sister) said the same thing to me a few months back. So when two of the smartest women I know say to me "stop trying to do something and just do it," I believe it's time to listen.
So, starting on Monday, I'm going to workout everyday in some form or fashion, and I'm going to keep up with my blog. That's it...that's where I'm starting...these two simple things. I know that once I start to look like my normal (for lack of a better word) self then I'll start to feel like my normal self. Once I feel better about me, then I can move on from there. I have always believed that if you don't feel good about yourself then you can't really be successful at anything until you do. Let's put my theory to the test and see if we can get this girl back to the absolutely awesome person that is buried deep inside somewhere.
